I feel it again. . . . The energy inside is swirling like an encapsulated cyclone, ready to burst through, exploding into the atmosphere. But my past, my hindrances clearly show that rather than exploding through and out into the wide open space of success, it quickly drops to the surface like a glop of heavy lethargic mass of dough without enough yeast to fully rise to even its anticipated potential. All this repeats itself, over and over till someone quietly refers to the otherwise well known phenomena as half assed attempts on the road to know where.
On second thought, maybe it’s just the caffeine I just put in this decaffeinated body ;-0
or the beginning of another elevated mood episode! Who knows – but I better resolve it on my 3 day weekend, because it’s back to work on Monday.
What brought this on so early in the morning? I guess it was getting Lesley Riley's e-newsletter last night and her reply this morning. I've been a fan and groupy for as long as she's been out there with her "Fragments" on her first website! A secret fan pretty much, but always admiring and wowed at her work. Now she's embarking on a new venture, just opening the widow slightly for those of us who get her newsletter. It hasn't been launched just yet, but I'm first in line. Here's some of what she wrote:
Artist Success - Solutions for the Struggling Artist . That's it. That's the name for my new (ad)venture. There's no website yet but we're working on it. I just can't hold back any longer letting you know what I'm up to.
As an Artist Success expert, I'll be working with artists who are unsure of their path; confused or scared about how to get from unknown to known; artists who are trying to discover their voice, their style, their why; artists who are afraid or embarassed to show their art or even claim the title ofartist. From my years teaching and speaking with 1000s of students, I know there are many artists who take all the classes and buy all the supplies in the hopes of discovering their art, but then end up overwhelmed and unsatisfied.
Basically, I am here to help the person I was, so many years ago. I figure if I went through it, there must be others out there looking for direction, for a mentor, for someone to take their hand and show them the ropes, navigate the path, divulge the secrets.
And this is worth repeating here from an earlier blog post of mine:
. . . a word of caution (to me!) I read a post called "Highs and Lows of Being an Artist" on Lesley Riley's blog today and it reminded me that sometimes what we wish for ends up being more than we wish for - if not monitored and occasionally assessed. She has achieved success in my mind. I admire her so much and I love her work! Not only is she a talented artist but she has the most generous spirit. I've followed her from nearly the beginning and I even have one of her "Fragments". It's one of my favorite treasures! I love everything about it.
We all need to make sure life doesn't overwhelm us and clutter our spirits!
We need to play often!!!
I'm anxiously awaiting further word about her new venture, because at 56 I know I still have time (I just learned about Julia Child's age when she hit the big time), but I battle the knowledge that it's not over until it's over -vs- feeling like I'm slowly leaning on that last leg, when it comes to success that is.